Darkling I listen

John Keats was sitting at his kitchen table. Everyone else was asleep. He was drinking filter coffee and wishing espresso wasn’t such a pain in the ass to make.

It was very humid. He was trying to write something.

He wrote, “Blah, blah, blah.”

He wrote,

Darkling I listen; and, for many a time
I have been half in love with easeful Death,
Call’d him soft names in many a musèd rhyme,
To take into the air my quiet breath;
Now more than ever seems it rich to die,
To cease upon the midnight with no pain,
While thou art pouring forth thy soul abroad
In such an ecstasy!
Still wouldst thou sing, and I have ears in vain—
To thy high requiem become a…

John Keats took a drink of coffee. He wondered what time it was. He looked at the corner of the journal he was writing in, as if there would be a clock there, and marveled slightly at the way use of computers colors one’s use of print media.

“Darkling I listen,” he read.

Then the cat ran into the kitchen. It ran in circles as if something were chasing it. It stopped, then it started again, in full panic mode. John Keats squinted, and perceived that the cat had a petunia stuck to its asshole.

The cat ran back out of the kitchen.

John Keats went into the living room and meditated. Then he got the kid off to school, and went to work.

Something brief about playing the cello

So it’s been what, nine years roughly. And my teacher just now shows me this thing, a composition for three or more cellos, four basic patterns to be played at will, over and over, composed in such a way that no matter which patterns you play, or how you play them, they sound good together. And I was all, Wow, because I could, for once, not freak out about reading the notes or my intonation, I could concentrate on hearing and making the music.

And I was all, motherfucker, why didn’t you show me this nine years ago? And defenestrated him, finally.

Actually, I was all, why do these sound good together? and he was all, Pentatonic scale. And I was all, Ahah.

Because I’d had an idea for a composition that worked roughly that way (patterns played at will) but got busy with something else.

I was talking to a guitar-teacher friend who said improvisation is the highest form of music and I said, yeah, but you have to know what you’re doing and he said, What about you and the theremin? and I said, WTF is it with you music teachers? Actually, I said, I’m not claiming that’s a high form of music, what I do with the theremin. His point with the theremin was, most players are improvising without actually mastering the instrument, which is probably correct.

Where was I? Pentatonic notes on the cello. It sounded beautiful. I could play that all day long. I was all, This is why I’m studying this here instrument.

What is your utopia?

Gamma played in a piano concert last night and afterwards she was drinking Seven Up with her friend who also played and I was drinking beer with the friend’s parents at a table on the sidewalk outside this place that makes its own beer and sometimes, like apparently yesterday, hurries the beer a little with the result that it accelerates your digestion to a very remarkable degree the next day, because, man. And somehow I got on the subject of utopias, and how I think right now is a good time to be thinking about them, and about how things could be, because with so much going belly-up right now we have a choice between creating positive ideas or Dick Cheney firing bolts of explosive plasma from a flying chariot.

In my opinion.

What is your utopia?

My utopia is a good school system, including a new idea of what schools are and how they work. It is free health care and a ten hour work week. My utopia is a television channel that enables you to talk to the deceased, and a tree house. My utopia is a flying chariot that shoots bolts of explosive plasma, only I’m driving it.